Maus was put to sleep last night. The appointment was at 5:00, and we walked out at 5:18, so it was fast. She was so doped up that the transition from drugged to sleeping to dead happened inperceptively. I was pretty messed up until the actual point of her death, at which point I burnt myself out emotionally and been flatlined since. My mother courteously made a bland dinner it was easy not to eat in excess. I watched the new show Fastlane on Fox, drank a white russian, took some pills and slept for twelve hours.